4 Years On

I have celebrated being married for 4 years, this last year of my marriage is has been a hard one for me. I have felt trapped and did not know where to turn. It is not that it is a bad marriage just that I did not know how to deal with the emotions that I have been going through.

I got very drunk one night and picked a fight with hubby and told him how i felt. Probably not the best way to get about it but it worked for me. I have found myself not telling him how I feel about things and just keeping them to myself. I did start the marriage with talking so why i am finding it so hard to do now? Is it because I just wanted an easy life and saying yes to things i did not really want to do was the easy way? Did I get married to quickly? I had only known him for 13 months before we agreed to get married and then married 6 months later. Or is it this is the first relationship that I am unable to walk away from so easily.

Well, part of me is looking forward to the next year and part of me is holding my breath to see how it goes.

Gaming

For the last year or so I have been playing Call of Duty on line. I have meet some really nice people while doing it and have had some great fun and some very frustrating moments (to the point that I cried!)

Well tonight I played for the first time in ages and I had fun again. The summer months have been hard to get people on the servers that I wanted to play on but has the holidays come to a close and the rain set in the players come back to the servers.

I joined a clan a year ago, I got my medal for 6 month membership but they have forgotten to give me the years medal. Should I remind them or should I leave it? I think I will just leave it and see if anyone spots it.

I hope they will be on again tomorrow but I am sure they will be busy again.

Wet

I did promise myself that i would not use my blog just to moan. That is why have not written on here for a while.

In the last week the weather has been wet wet and more wet. The ruby field that I take Lilly for a walk is full of large puddles. This would be a problem if she did not like water. However I have found out that she loves running through the puddles at full pelt, with spray coming up behind her.

The downside is her towels are not getting a chance to dry and I may have to get the hair dryer on her soon.