Trying to calm the waves

In the last week I have been trying to make our living arrangement nicer, it went as follows

Back from holiday on the Thursday night. (He fell asleep on the sofa)

Friday - tense but he left at about 2pm to go way for the weekend, this was already planed.

Monday - woke up and found him asleep on the sofa. So I went to work as normal, He had the day off to get over the weekend. Got back from work and he was not there. He was collecting the birds from his mothers. Helped him get the birds in and then he went out. I found his wedding ring on his desk.

Tuesday - normal day a little strained in the house in the morning. got back from work walked the dog and then fell asleep

Wednesday - Can not live with the not talking but don't know how to get us to open up to one another, so I left him a note under his wedding ring, Asking him if he had given up on us.

Got home from work and just started talking to him about it. The out come of the talk is that how thing run in home will change and he is worried about money. We also talked about the emotional side of our relationship and he was unsure that this part of it will change.

I have agreed to review it at Christmas.

I don't know if the changes will be enough but at least it is a nice place to live without the atmosphere.

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The Holiday was good and we did some different things than we had done before. My friends were as lovely as ever, even if I did not feel I spent enough time with them.

The problem with the holiday was, I got drunk, cried and asked for a divorce!

Was this the best way to do it probably not but is there any way I could have done it differently?

This is what I want but is it going to be really had o do. I have read the detail of how to get a divorce and we do not fit into the categories. Adultery, not do that and this is why I want it so that I don't do this and hurt him too much. (like asking, what i did, would not hurt!)

He said he was not surprised and we had drifted apart.

DAMN! DAMN! DAMN! why do I always rock the boat!

A little bit of me is asking was this the right thing to do? or am I just looking for an easy life.

A friend has told me to think about where I want to be in 5 years time and is he in the picture. I don't think so as he would be happy to be in the same place as we are now and I want to do so many things and travel and go out more and eat nice food and nasty food (as least I tried it), but he will be happy to eat and the same place over and over again. Stay in and do nothing!

so my plan so far is:

Find out if I am able to buy him out of the house or do it up and sell it (but I think that will take too long)

I will keep you updated as to what will happen!